If i have to hear it one more time..

Ah yes, I'm pregnant again.. And even though this is my fourth pregnancy in 6 years people still feel the need to throw their opinions about anything and everything into my face along with every stereotypical and stupid comment you can make to a woman who is expecting..

So i am responding..

YES, Oh my god, yes.. I know what causes this.. Clearly i built my family by clicking my heels together and wishing really hard.
Seriously this is how it always goes..
Hey, we got some great news the other day.
Yea, whats that?
James and I are going to have another baby!
Oh.. you know what causes that right?
I mean for once could i get a congratulations. Yes i acknowledge that my husband and i have carnal knowledge of each other. Yes i know that is how children are conceived. Yes that is one of the many reasons (many reasons) we do it..

No, this was not (i repeat NOT) a surprise (or accident or oopsie).. I am an adult woman who has a brain. I understand that as a woman of reproductive age, contraception is something that i must think about and practice. Unless my husband and I have comfortably and securely made the decision to let nature take its course and try to conceive.
Because lets face it.. Your either trying or your not. Not, not trying (not using contraception) is indeed trying to get pregnant..

How am I going to handle it all?
Well, its not like I'm giving birth to the incredible hulk so i think i can manage.. The same way i managed when i had one child, or two, or three. Just because you couldn't imagine it all (to the lady with no kids) doesn't mean that some families don't thrive. And no (to the lady who has one bad as hell kid) I am not crazy. I don't very often say it out loud but I'm a damn good Mom! and James is one damn good Father and Husband. Believe it or not, its not bedlam around here. At this moment dinner is in the oven, Presley is sitting at the island in the kitchen quietly doing his homework and James, River and Wilson are snuggled under the green blanket (that i crocheted myself) watching Top Gun.. Its actually quite peaceful..

Yes my hands are full. So is my car, pantry, linen closet, freezer, garage, junk drawer, glass of tea... I have alot of things that are full. But my heart is fuller than all of them combined..

Yes, your right. It probably is better me than you.

NO! I'm not trying for a girl. I'm trying for a fucking giraffe.. This one really bugs me. Why do people assume that because i have sons that i must be having a fourth child so i can have a girl. Amazingly enough folks, i don't need to have a daughter. If anything, a boy would really save me a ton of cash because we have everything set up for boys.
If this child comes into the world with indoor plumbing, Its not like I'm going to need therapy. I will be just as excited for a hamburger as i would a hot dog.. I'm just getting a little tired of people telling me that i need to have a daughter.

And the last one.. And probably the one that is the most personal that people just feel freely to discuss.
You know what, I'm not sure if I'm having my tubes tied after this or not. I may decide that this chapter in my life is over or i may decide to travel down this road again some day. I'm not really sure yet.
I know that I've leaned toward completion with this pregnancy but in all honesty its only because everybody and their fucking Mother is telling me that's what i need to do.. Yes, I've got more than 1.6 children. No, I'm not trying to have my own TLC show. What difference does it make to anyone else? We're not of welfare, food stamps or WIC. Our kids are well behaved. They say please and thank you, they don't put their elbows on the table. I can think of alot of people who shouldn't have ANY children and for damn sure shouldn't have any more.. But i wouldn't say anything to them. So why then, do people feel so free to say to me "Geeze another one? When are you gonna get James fixed?". Fixed? James isn't broken and if I didn't want to be pregnant, I wouldn't be pregnant..


Okay.. Well i guess that's enough pissing and moaning for one night. I better go anyway, that chicken isn't gonna fry itself!!

This was a good idea?

Wow i haven't "blogged" in a while..

So lets catch up eh?

Okay so we pulled the goalie.. Or actually the goalie committed suicide. My IUD jumped out of my cervix 4 days before my appointment to talk to my doctor about having it removed anyway. I guess so me folks just cant handle rejection.
So me, the fertile Myrtle, got pregnant a few minutes later.. Well maybe a more than a few minutes but within the next few weeks i got two pink lines, a blue plus sign, two red lines and a phone call from a lab tech saying i had a low (but detectable) amount of HCG in my blood.. A week later i got another phone call from the woman who was to arrange my prenatal care. She seemed very concerned over just how low the level was, so she ordered another blood test which came back reassuringly high..
So there was that.. I'm knocked up, with child, in a family way, with a delicate condition or very, very pregnant with my 4Th child since 2005.. However you want to look at it..
Morning sickness came in and kicked my ass. Hormones made me crazy and lack of calories made me exhausted.. Plus we all had a touch of the flu to make things just that much better!! All of that equals a dirty house and Momma doesn't give a shit today.. Sorry kids, we're not getting dressed and Moms not getting off the couch.. Right in the midst of that when i really thought.. WHY DID I DO THIS?? What was i thinking?? 4 kids? Brandy are you insane? You cant handle three kids and the flu!! That karma thing people keep talking about, showed up.. I started bleeding. A lot. I went to the ER and noticed through the panic that i was cramping too..
Okay i thought, i know what this means.. I also know that I've been through worse and I'll be okay.. After an exam, blood test and ultrasound it was determined that this kid is a tough one because he was amazingly enough, still in there! He was a little small.. About 11 days smaller than he should have been which would have normally been a big concern but seeing as how i had very low HCG levels.. It seems like i just conceived a little late in my cycle and everything is fine.. So far.. Its still very early on but I'm feeling good about it.. Physically i feel like barfing but emotionally I'm feeling good..
Oh yea, my new due date from my ultrasound is the same due date i had with Presley, June 21st (though he came a few hours early and landed on June 20Th) so what are the chance of that??